Posted by: Michael | 08/05/2016

Embracing the World with Loving-kindness 

After the events of two days ago, I’m even more determined not to allow myself to give way to anger in my mind, speech and bodily behavior. It sends to me that the only real way to do this is to embracing everything that comes in at the sense doors with metta but this is much more difficult than it would at first seem. If nothing else though, it is a good practice to see just how much aversion, judgement, fear and criticism there is in the mind and how rare it is to feel loving-kindness for others. 

May we all be well, happy and peaceful! 

May we grow in the Dhamma and release ourselves from suffering! 

Posted by: Michael | 08/04/2016

Anger 

Last night I got into a heated argument with a group of teenagers walking down my block who decided it would be fun to throw half empty bottles at the apartment buildings. I was with my kids and although I don’t believe that were necessarily in danger the bottle did unexpectedly ricochet off the wall and bounce towards us. 

I won’t get into the details but suffice it to say that I lost restraint and ended up calling the one kid who did it “stupid.” There were threats and all that good stuff but eventually I had to get my kids in our building and get my phone to call the cops. I did and, of course, since this is NYC nothing came of it. But, after it was all over I was left with a heavy, poisoned heart. 

The unwritten rule in the city is to let people do whatever they want for fear they might end up harming you for intervening. Unfortunately, I have proven myself immune to this sentiment time and again. I saw what was happening in mind the moment I accepted the course of anger and more that it had everything to do with my ego and serve of self. These kids were in MY neighborhood, making a mess and endangering MY kids’ safety and I am not the kind of man who would stand for it. So, that was the line of thinking that got me to a place where anger took over and good sense and restraint departed. 

I resolve to be extra careful in the future with these stuff but I’m amazed at how quickly even contemplating the situation in order to better understand and forgive brings me to a place of hostility. All last night and this morning I’ve been wording through my feelings of guilt, aversion and anger and I keep getting caught in the sticky for of ego driven hostility. 

My aversion  to the aversion itself seems to be the problem here because I keep reaching for it to pick it up so I can put it down. When I see it that way it’s no wonder that I can’t work with it. Now that I’ve recognized the unskillful way I handled the situation, and forgiveness of the boy (mentally) and forgiven myself I think the best thing to do is to let it cool off and return to it later. As disturbing as it was, it has been a great lesson and teaching showing me just how much there is to be done. 

Posted by: Michael | 08/03/2016

Do Not Be Lazy 

I keep returning to this one simple fact: laziness, whether it be of the mundane or spiritual variety, inevitably leads me into problems. When I allow myself to seek comfort instead of offering it, when I chose the path of least resistance instead of the path of adversity and learning things always go worse than I expected or had hoped.

What good is a momentary sense pleasure of it needs to be paid for by days, years or eons of suffering? On this uposatha day may I recall that there is no happiness nor refuge outside of the Dhamma and may I cultivate viriya parami, never slipping into indolence.

Posted by: Michael | 08/02/2016

Invocation of Forgiveness

I call on the powers of metta and karuna,
to heal and wipe away resentment. 

I am ready to forgive and heal old wounds.
May I forgive you for harming me deliberately or by accident and make way for friendship. 

May I forgive all who have hurt me in the past, deliberately
or by accident. 

I am ready to forgive myself for errors
made and things I have done in the past that I regret.

Compassion replaces resentment, peace replaces anger as forgiveness grows inside me, my heart lightens filling me with a sense of wellbeing and acceptance. 

May I cultivate metta karuna for myself and all beings, the great healer of hearts.

Posted by: Michael | 08/01/2016

Remembering Our Mothers 

When Remembering My Mother
by Shabkar Tsokdruk Rangdrol

Listen now, Tsokdruk Rangdrol!

You say that your mother, who bore you
In her womb in this life, was kind.
But why, then, do you not consider even once
The kindness of other beings who helped you,
Your parents from countless lives in the past?

Now all these past mothers of yours are suffering
From intense heat and cold, hunger and thirst, and servitude,
They are crippled, destitute, and sick—
So how could you forget them all?

All living beings have been your kind mothers,
And if it is true, as the Buddha himself said,
That there’s no difference between your present mother
And those of your previous lives,
Why do you persist in making distinctions
Between mothers of earlier and later lives?
What could be the point of such discrimination?
Consider it well!

To neglect all your mothers from the past,
And remember only one is a form of attachment.
So don’t think that you’ve truly aroused compassion!
For as long as you have partiality and attachment,
There will be no liberation from samsara.
For as long as you have attachment,
Don’t claim to have renounced the affairs of this life!

To forget all those who have been your mother in the past,
While shedding tears at the thought of your old mother now,
Would, if seen by your teacher, or the buddhas and their heirs,
Prove nothing but a source of embarrassment!

Consider the kindness of your mothers from the past!
If you should weep while contemplating their plight,
The teacher, the buddhas and their heirs will all rejoice.

Just as you think of your mother in this life, therefore,
Contemplate the suffering and hardship
Of all those poor beings who were your mothers before,
And shed tears for them all, again and again.

Just as you feel love for your mother of this life,
Generate love for all beings, your mothers from the past,
And arouse compassion and bodhichitta too—
With this, you will enter the ranks of the Mahayana.

Again and again, bring to mind all the kindness
Of beings of the six classes, your own kind parents.
If you care for them like your mother of this life,
They will love you too, as their very own child.

Tsokdruk Rangdrol spoke these words to himself on one occasion when remembering his mother.

Posted by: Michael | 08/01/2016

Though my body be sick… 

212. Nakulapita said to the Lord: “Lord, I am a broken down old man, aged; I have reached the end of my years. Rarely am I able to see the Lord and the monks so worthy of respect. Therefore, let the Lord cheer and comfort me so that it will be to my welfare and happiness for a long time.”
“It is true, householder; what you say is true. For one carrying about the body, to claim even a moment’s health would be foolishness. Therefore, you should train yourself, thinking: ‘Though my body be sick, my mind shall not be sick.’ This is how you should train yourself.”

Samyutta Nikaya III.2

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Posted by: Michael | 07/30/2016

Welcoming Adversity

The practice of welcoming adversity as a way of training the mind and testing one’s progress along the path of cultivating a boundless heart is one which has proven to be both incredibly fruitful and understandably difficult.

As my own spiritual power and energy ebbs and flows so too dos my ability to skillfully practice the such mind training techniques. I mentioned in an earlier post that, for some time, I was able to practice without allowing compassion to degenerate into resentment and self-flagellation but somewhere along the way I lost the thread. Luckily for me I have at least enough of an intuition to collocate the problem in my own mind rather than with the teachings themselves and am beginning to feel out the way back through the fog and darkness of delusion, greed and aversion.

Part and parcel of clearing the ground for such intuitions has been a return to heart focused metta practices and a daily regimen of chanting refuges, precepts, suttas and teachings intended to mold the mind and heart and incline them towards metta-karuna. I’ve been working with a new version of my Daily Practice book for a little over a month and a half and when I feel it’s ready I’ll post a link. Until then, may I welcome adversity with good cheer and embrace every opportunity to polish the heart. Sukhitaa hontu!

Posted by: Michael | 07/29/2016

May all beings be free from suffering 

It’s funny but despite having been at this for more than a quarter of my life, I still find myself doubting the efficacy of using parikamma or meditation phrases to evoke and generate states of mind. Why, when I,  myself,  can recall times when it has been effective? That’s just my conditioning I guess but I think it may also point to a truth I’ve arrived at through practice. 

You see, in my own experience, it seems that rote repition of mantra is almost useless but when I can connect the words and intention that’s when the magic happens. So, I’m going to give reciting the lines that corn the title of today’s post for a formal session for the next month and throw it in as a daily practice when the mind types of tonglen or buddho and see the results. 

May all beings be free from suffering! 

Posted by: Michael | 07/28/2016

Rough Day 

This morning was seemingly like any other but, for whatever reason, a storm was brewing in my wife’s heart that would soon break upon all of us. Clearly, it is my kamma to receive such blame and anger but its intensity and apparent groundlessness can be bewildering at times. 

I can at least comfort myself knowing that I refused to reply once it became clear that she couldn’t hear but how far am I from the standard the Lord Buddha laid out in the Simile of the Saw. I often marvel at the boundless quality of the heart of the Buddha in that he was able to deal with enmity and hostility from characters like Devadatta and Bharadvaja without having his mind trained by aversion. What an amazing, supernatural power. 

May I be free from hostility and may I cultivate a boundless heart. May I become a true son of the Lord Buddha! 

Posted by: Michael | 07/27/2016

Envy 

162. There are these four perfect efforts. What four? Concerning this, one generates desire to prevent the arising of evil unprofitable states that have not yet arisen. One makes an effort, sets going energy, lays hold of and exerts the mind to this end.
One generates desire for the abandoning of evil unprofitable states that have already arisen. One makes an effort, sets going energy, lays hold of and exerts the mind to this end.
One generates desire for the arising of profitable states that have not yet arisen. One makes an effort, sets going energy, lays hold of and exerts the mind to this end.
And one generates desire for the persisting, the non-confusion, the further development, the increase, cultivation and fulfilment of profitable states that have already arisen. One makes an effort, sets going energy, lays hold of and exerts the mind to this end.

Digha Nikaya II.313

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