Cattāri Brahmavihārā

I failed again, egregiously, but what use is crippling guilt when the kamma I have made will ripen inexorably? There is the feeling of having sullied myself – from that I cannot escape. But once the initial paroxyms of remorse have passed what is the use of propping up this idea of a bad self?

These are actual questions. I am trying to draw the line between owning my actions and not creating a new self based upon them. I see where I stumbled and I intend to act differently although I cannot be certain of the outcome.