Posted by: Michael Rickicki | 05/30/2014

Fearing Fear Itself

The other shoe has dropped and it does not bode well for my business. Still, after seemingly interminable months of living in fear of the worst I think I have learned a thing or two about how to carry on even in the midst of disaster. I feel that I have begun to let go and accept the inevitable when there is nothing more to be done but I am yet afraid. And the strangest thing is I am not afraid of the changes to come in our life nearly as much as I am afraid of how I will deal with it. In the last year I witnessed myself succumb completely to worry and fear while I sacrificed the practice and all else on the altar of gain. This is what I fear: that I will once more forget what is truly important and what we should do with what little time we have here if we are not to waste our lives.

May we remain steadfast in the Dhamma regardless of what the winds of kamma bestow upon us.


  1. Interesting thoughts on a struggle I have been experiencing recently: how to practice amidst “disaster”. Ultimately I have found the practice of mindfulness and watching ” catastrophizing” thoughts to be really helpful. I look forward to more of your posts. Thanks. Miles Pilling.

  2. Sorry that should be – http://www.mindful it’s my experience of practising mindfulness and the dharma as I become increasingly disabled.

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