Posted by: Upāsaka Subhavi | 01/11/2022

Failure

I chose to fail tonight and decided that I would break fast rather than wait until 11am tomorrow. I didn’t eat enough to keep my energy up and so I threw away months of continuous fasting. And yet…

I’m kind of ambivalent about it. In the end, it is just a practice among others and , for the first time, I didn’t feel like it was serving me well. Maybe it was weakness but I definitely want to reflect on it and my reasons for both continuing and for having given it up.

Yes, the discipline has been invigorating and helpful but I have both caught myself feeling haughty as well as compelled to continue solely by force of habit. Regardless, I won’t give up my goal of pursuing liberation and walking the path of the Dhamma.


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