Cattāri Brahmavihārā

As alluded to in the title, plans are often a list of things that never happen. I had planned my day to make the evening Muay Thai classes near work but my wife and kids called me in a panic because of an errant cockroach.

Interestingly enough, I have been flooded both with feelings of resentment and failure because I am conflicted about my resolve. I feel that I could have fought more to resist the request that I get home quickly and allowed them to take care of it. To add insult to injury, my son called me after I had left work to inform me that he had taken care of it.

Too late to make it to class, I am now waiting on a platform to go home. I know I will still need to do 15 Minutes of kicking drills now to make up for the loss of the classes but the worst thing is the resentment. That’s why it’s good to remember why I’m doing all of this stuff in the first place.

Yes, it sucks to waste money on a membership in not using. Yes, it sucks not to train when I had made arrangements to do so. But what would suck even more is if I allowed it to ruin my equanimity. If I allowed these circumstances to determine my mood.

May I put in a redoubled effort tonight and practice well.