Cattāri Brahmavihārā

This morning, despite waking up early with the best of intentions, I was not strong enough to overcome the waves of nausea and fatigue that swept over me. Perhaps it was the combination of vitamins I took, but soon after ingesting them I had the distinct urge to vomit.

I pushed myself through meditation and Tai Chi standing practice but I gave in and slept for an extra ten minutes. And, rather than walking the seven miles to work with a heavy pack as I had planned, I opted instead for the 2.5 hike to Wall Street.

It may have been the disappointment, but irritation, disgust and nihilistic thoughts have been besieging me all morning. And, come what may, I know that, at the very least, I should keep my mouth shut and not make any resolves until this pernicious state passes.