Posted by: Upāsaka Subhavi | 05/19/2015

Fear of Metta

Something strange has happened this morning and I am still somewhat surpassed by it: I sat down to meditate having decided to take up the theme of metta and was quickly overwhelmed by fear. Suddenly, the suffering of all the beings to whom I was to send metta became clear to me and I found myself inside of feeling with it. Rather than sitting with it, as I now with I would have, I changed to the breath. Here again I almost lost my hold but I used the breath with Buddho, then Dhammo and finally Sangho as a way of taking refugee in the Triple Gem and my fear was finally manageable. Not sure why this happened today but it may be because I an still weak from being sick all weekend.


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