Posted by: Michael | 02/07/2018

Sticks and Carrots

I tend to be someone with a preference for using the stick over the carrot but, in both child rearing and spiritual practice, there needs to be a balance. And, much like I’m beginning to learn as a parent, the stick should never be wielded in vengeance.

My moral lapse is still fresh in my mind and I can clearly see how three lack of the bodily feeling of remorse is a boon in and of itself. It feels literally as if my body were covered in some dark, viscous substance. I also notice that it’s hard to get the mind to relax into contentment outside of meditation. So, it seems that not keeping one’s precepts and practice commitments as pure as possible really does make for an agitated mind and body here and in the future.

I know that I cannot erase my misdeeds but may I use them to deepen my understanding of them so that I’m not fooled again.

Posted by: Michael | 02/06/2018

Mistakes

I was suffering and I made a mistake thinking that somehow doing something unskillful could bring me happiness. For a scant few seconds the pain of desire was soothed only to be quickly replaced with regret.

My job now is to forgive and hold muy heart with compassion so that I might learn not to make the same mistake again. How many times have I tried to punish myself for my errors only to find myself committing them again?

I feel that I need to do my best not to give into guilt and negativity which will only compound the harm I’ve done myself. It helps to recall how I might comfort and counsel a friend in a similar situation; may I be as good a friend to myself as I would to anyone else.

Posted by: Michael | 02/05/2018

Fear and Failure

So, I’ve been unsuccessful in keeping my practice commitments and I think it largely has do to with fear. With so many people succumbing to the flu I find myself daily worrying if I’m coming down with it myself. As a result, I haven’t been pushing myself to fast or exercise as I had planned.

Thankfully, I’m slowly starting to realize that there will never be a time when I feel completely strong and fit. In fact, the older I get the more rare those feelings are likely to become. The point is this: if I really find value in these practices that transcends this birth why would I let the fear of sickness stop me? That really is the question. I’m trying to develop toughness of mind and if these things aren’t setting that then maybe it is better to let them go. But, if I’m honest with myself, I don’t yet know that so I feel I deserve at least one more attempt at it.

Posted by: Michael | 02/01/2018

Walking Bags of Filth

This morning, as I would my way to work through NYC’s subterranean passages a vision of myself and those around me as little more than walking bags of filth took hold of my attention.

Initially, it was just the thought of last night’s dinner sitting in my stomach as it was mixed in with breakfast and coffee–a thought that was nauseating enough. But, as I became aware of others around me, I perceived the sane vision. The attractive woman next to me had a stomach and colon full of her own breakfast as did the woman drinking her coffee. Immediately, all lust dropped away.

As is always the case with these perceptions, it’s utility is sure to wane quickly but for as long as it had ab emotional impact I’ll continue to use it.

Posted by: Michael | 01/31/2018

Remove Desire

103 “They are not sense pleasures, the world’s pretty things:

Man’s sensuality is the intention of lust.

The pretty things remain as they are in the world

But the wise remove the desire for them.

Posted by: Michael | 01/30/2018

Using Discomfort

Yesterday was rough and I was only able to partially fulfill my practice aspirations due to family issues and scheduling conflicts. But, I did the best that I could and pushed myself beyond my comfort level. Eating once a day leaves me with low energy at times but it’s the way that I deal with that particular kind of suffering that interests me. In other words, how can I make a refuge in he mind that not affected by external conditions? That’s really the point for me undertaking a physical exercise and fasting routine.

Another surprising result of  trying to use discomfort as a training tool is to see that most of my day is spent trying to micromanage the myriad, tiny sufferings we live through in the course of a day. It’s cold so we turn on the heat; we have a hunger pang so we open the fridge; we’re bored so we read a book or watch a show. But, what happens when we don’t do that? What can I learn in those spaces of stress and boredom? That’s what interests me and it runs so counter to the ways of modern civilization that it’s like an invigorating splash of cold water to the face.

May we not run from our suffering but, instead, may we bear with it until we comprehend it.

Posted by: Michael | 01/29/2018

Setting Intention

Lat night my son and I went to a meditation class with a teacher I have know for over a decade. One of the themes that jumped out at me and that the teacher, himself, highlighted was the importance of setting our intention not only before practice but during it as well. The fact that we tend to drift into the hindrances during meditation should be familiar to any student of meditation so it was refreshing to be reminded that, although we may not have the freedom to decide how “well” our meditation goes, we do have the freedom to decide how to hold it.

Clearly, the lesson here is a s valid for life off the cushion as it is for formal meditation and no less powerful. May I constantly recall my intention to practice for the benefit of myself and all beings with love and compassion.

Posted by: Michael | 01/28/2018

Training Routine

With my shingles outbreak comfortably behind me I want to take up a routine of physical exercise and endurance conditioning again to be better able to serve the Dhamma and other beings. In other words, by being able to bear with discomfort and difficulties and to decrease my chances of illness, I want to resume aregien of exercise and fasting. My plan (which is always subject to change) is as follows:

  • Eat one meal a day (vegan as always).
  • Take only cold showers.
  • 108 prostrations, sit-ups and push-ups
  • 108 minutes of seated meditation
  • Use weight vest while at work.

Looks simple but, from past experience, I know it will be difficult for me. Often enough I end up losing the thread completely when I get sick so I’ll try to be aware of where I slip up and go easy on myself when I’m feeling under the weather so I can quickly take up the routine again.

May I use this body as a vehicle to ferry myself and others to the Deathless.

Posted by: Michael | 01/28/2018

Buddho – Keeping the Breath in Mind

Sit in a half-lotus position, right leg on top of the left leg, your hands placed palm-up on your lap, right hand on top of the left. Keep your body straight and your mind on the task before you. Raise your hands in respect, palm-to-palm in front of the heart, and think of the qualities of the Buddha, Dhamma, and Sangha: Buddho me natho — The Buddha is my mainstay. Dhammo me natho — The Dhamma is my mainstay. Sangho me natho — The Sangha is my mainstay. Then repeat in your mind, buddho, buddho; dhammo, dhammo; sangho, sangho. Return your hands to your lap and repeat one word, buddho,three times in your mind.

Then think of the in-and-out breath, counting the breaths in pairs. First think bud- with the in-breath, dho with the out, ten times. Then begin again, thinking buddho with the in-breath, buddho with the out, seven times. Then begin again: As the breath goes in and out once, think buddho once, five times. Then begin again: As the breath goes in and out once, think buddho three times. Do this for three in-and-out breaths.

Now you can stop counting the breaths, and simply think bud- with the in-breath and dhowith the out. Let the breath be relaxed and natural. Keep your mind perfectly still, focused on the breath as it comes in and out of the nostrils. When the breath goes out, don’t send the mind out after it. When the breath comes in, don’t let the mind follow it in. Let your awareness be broad, cheerful, and open. Don’t force the mind too much. Relax. Pretend that you’re breathing out in the wide open air. Keep the mind still, like a post at the edge of the sea. When the water rises, the post doesn’t rise with it; when the water ebbs, the post doesn’t sink.

When you’ve reached this level of stillness, you can stop thinking buddho. Simply be aware of the feeling of the breath.

Then slowly bring your attention inward, focusing it on the various aspects of the breath — the important aspects that can give rise to intuitive powers of various kinds: clairvoyance, clairaudience, the ability to know the minds of others, the ability to remember previous lives, the ability to know where different people and animals are reborn after death, and knowledge of the various elements or potentials that are connected with, and can be of use to, the body. These elements come from the bases of the breath.

The First Base: Center the mind on the tip of the nose and then slowly move it to the middle of the forehead;

The Second Base. Keep your awareness broad. Let the mind rest for a moment at the forehead and then bring it back to the nose. Keep moving it back and forth between the nose and the forehead — like a person climbing up and down a mountain — seven times. Then let it settle at the forehead. Don’t let it go back to the nose.

From here, let it move to The Third Base, the middle of the top of the head, and let it settle there for a moment. Keep your awareness broad. Inhale the breath at that spot, let it spread throughout the head for a moment, and then return the mind to the middle of the forehead. Move the mind back and forth between the forehead and the top of the head seven times, finally letting it rest on the top of the head.

Then bring it into The Fourth Base, the middle of the brain. Let it be still for a moment and then bring it back out to the top of the head. Keep moving it back and forth between these two spots, finally letting it settle in the middle of the brain. Keep your awareness broad. Let the refined breath in the brain spread to the lower parts of the body.

When you reach this point you may find that the breath starts giving rise to various signs (nimitta), such as seeing or feeling hot, cold, or tingling sensations in the head. You may see a pale, murky vapor or your own skull. Even so, don’t let yourself be affected by whatever appears. If you don’t want the nimitta to appear, breathe deep and long, down into the heart, and it will immediately go away.

When you see that a nimitta has appeared, mindfully focus your awareness on it — but be sure to focus on only one at a time, choosing whichever one is most comfortable. Once you’ve got hold of it, expand it so that it’s as large as your head. The bright white nimitta is useful to the body and mind: It’s a pure breath that can cleanse the blood in the body, reducing or eliminating feelings of physical pain.

When you have this white light as large as the head, bring it down to The Fifth Base, the center of the chest. Once it’s firmly settled, let it spread out to fill the chest. Make this breath as white and as bright as possible, and then let both the breath and the light spread throughout the body, out to every pore, until different parts of the body appear on their own as pictures. If you don’t want the pictures, take two or three long breaths and they’ll disappear. Keep your awareness still and expansive. Don’t let it latch onto or be affected by any nimitta that may happen to pass into the brightness of the breath. Keep careful watch over the mind. Keep it one. Keep it intent on a single preoccupation, the refined breath, letting this refined breath suffuse the entire body.

When you’ve reached this point, knowledge will gradually begin to unfold. The body will be light, like fluff. The mind will be rested and refreshed — supple, solitary, and self-contained. There will be an extreme sense of physical pleasure and mental ease.

If you want to acquire knowledge and skill, practice these steps until you’re adept at entering, leaving, and staying in place. When you’ve mastered them, you’ll be able to give rise to the nimitta of the breath — the brilliantly white ball or lump of light — whenever you want. When you want knowledge, simply make the mind still and let go of all preoccupations, leaving just the brightness and emptiness. Think one or two times of whatever you want to know — of things inside or outside, concerning yourself or others — and the knowledge will arise or a mental picture will appear. To become thoroughly expert you should, if possible, study directly with someone who has practiced and is skilled in these matters, because knowledge of this sort can come only from the practice of centering the mind.

The knowledge that comes from centering the mind falls into two classes: mundane (lokiya) and transcendent (lokuttara). With mundane knowledge, you’re attached to your knowledge and views on the one hand, and to the things that appear and give rise to your knowledge on the other. Your knowledge and the things that give you knowledge through the power of your skill are composed of true and false mixed together — but the “true” here is true simply on the level of mental fabrication, and anything fabricated is by nature changeable, unstable, and inconstant.

So when you want to go on to the transcendent level, gather all the things you know and see into a single preoccupation — ekaggatarammana, the singleness of mental absorption — and see that they are all of the same nature. Take all your knowledge and awareness and gather it into the same point, until you can clearly see the truth: that all of these things, by their nature, simply arise and pass away. Don’t try to latch onto the things you know — your preoccupations — as yours. Don’t try to latch onto the knowledge that has come from within you as your own. Let these things be, in line with their own inherent nature. If you latch onto your pre-occupations, you’re latching onto stress and pain. If you hold onto your knowledge, it will turn into the cause of stress.

So: A mind centered and still gives rise to knowledge. This knowledge is the path. All of the things that come passing by for you to know are stress. Don’t let the mind fasten onto its knowledge. Don’t let it fasten onto the preoccupations that appear for you to know. Let them be, in line with their nature. Put your mind at ease. Don’t fasten onto the mind or suppose it to be this or that. As long as you suppose yourself, you’re suffering from obscured awareness (avijja). When you can truly know this, the transcendent will arise within you — the noblest good, the most exalted happiness a human being can know.

To summarize, the basic steps to practice are as follows:

1. Eliminate all bad preoccupations from the mind.2. Make the mind dwell on good preoccupations.

3. Gather all good preoccupations into one — the singleness of meditative absorption (jhana).

4. Consider this one preoccupation until you see how it is aniccam, inconstant; dukkham, stressful; and anatta, not yourself or anyone else — empty and void.

5. Let all good and bad preoccupations follow their own nature — because good and bad dwell together and are equal by nature. Let the mind follow its own nature. Let knowing follow its own nature. Knowing doesn’t arise, and it doesn’t fall away. This is santi-dhamma — the reality of peace. It knows goodness, but the knowing isn’t goodness, and goodness isn’t the knowing. It knows evil, but the knowing isn’t evil, and evil isn’t the knowing. In other words, knowing isn’t attached to knowledge or to the things known. Its nature is truly elemental — flawless and pure, like a drop of water on a lotus leaf. This is why it’s called asankhata-dhatu: the unfabricated property, a true element.

When you can follow these five steps, you’ll find marvels appearing in your heart, the skills and perfections that come from having practiced tranquillity and insight meditation. You’ll obtain the two types of results already mentioned:

mundane, providing for your own physical well-being and that of others throughout the world; andtranscendent, providing for the well-being of your heart, bringing happiness that is calm, cool, and blooming, leading all the way to Liberation (nibbana) — free from birth, aging, illness, and death.

This has been a brief explanation of the main principles of breath meditation. If you have any questions or encounter any difficulties in putting these principles into practice, and you wish to study directly with someone who teaches along these lines, I will be happy to help you to the best of my ability so that we can all attain the peace and well-being taught by the religion.

https://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/thai/lee/inmind.html#method1

 

Posted by: Michael | 01/26/2018

Seeding the Mind Stream

I have practiced using the parikamma or meditation word “buddho” of and on for years but have often given up out of frustration that I’m not experiencing altered states or jhana during daily life. Let’s put aside for a moment how unrealistic such an idea is and just take that conception at face value. That said, I short question and answer session that Ajahn Achalo recorded gave me a whole new perspective. In other words, I’ve been doing it wrong.

Rather than view buddho during daily life as a concentrating technique, it’s much more skillful and useful to see it as a way to seed the mind with wholesome potential. This way, when dearth comes, the probability of it being in a better state is much higher. Plus, by keeping buddho in mind even a little bit it may be that I’ll be less easily deluded.

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