Posted by: Michael | 06/01/2018

Training for the Saw

In the Simile of the Saw in the Kakacupama Sutta, the Lord Buddha asserts the bar high. If we wish to truly embody his Dhamma, we must not let our minds be overcome with hate, regardless of how we are treated. I shared an excerpt yesterday from a book by Jeffery Hopkins that describes a Tibetan technique to cultivate compassion by imagining oneself in horrifying situations. Whether we imagine being tortured in a literal Hell or beaten to death by a partisan mob, doing so well good to a heart of sympathy will at once profoundly change or perspective and make us worthy of being considered true children of the Blessed One.

As someone who is already prone to worry and aversion, this practice has opened new vistas onto the world. By engaging with horripilation and refusing to give in to anger and hatred the idea of an engaged social justice begins to make some sense.

Imagine my children being ripped away from me at the border as I flee from murderers seeking asylum. Can I abide without hated for the CPD agents and immigration judges who seem to act cruelly for no reason? Imagine being accosted and murdered by police simply for being black? Can I maintain equanimity and metta in that situation?

In a world that is seemingly hurtling towards a violent conclusion I can think of few better practices to prepare oneself.

Posted by: Michael | 05/30/2018

Frequent Recollection

At work I have had, for some time, an altar with a statue of the Lord Buddha, incense, water and candles. I like to use it during those times when I can find a spare fifteen minutes to meditate, however irregularly this may be. But, it occurs to me that I should begin each workday by retain the refuges and precepts I will have usually taken in the morning after formal practice. In doing so I hope to strengthen my heedfulness and keep the Triple Gem always to the fore.

Posted by: Michael | 05/28/2018

Repentance Practice

For the past day or so I’ve been contemplating my death, or perhaps more accurately, my rebirth. There are a ninety of things that I have done in the past and which I fear may arise at the moment of death.

Whenever I had previously contemplated bowing practice as repentance I could never quite get it. Who was I offering repentance to? From whom was I asking forgiveness? I see now that it is a completely internal process. The act may be strong enough to leave an imprint on one’s own mind. So prostrations, joined with dana, fasting, chanting and meditation might just do the trick.

Clearly, there are repentance rituals in Chinese Buddhism as well as in Tibetan so I’ll explore those further as well. Sabbe satta pamuccantu.

Posted by: Michael | 05/28/2018

At Death

I’ve been so tired from fasting that I have let posting here slide. For that I apologize (mostly to myself) but I will put forth more effort.

Tonight I was reading a book by a Sayadaw entitled Kamma at Death and Rebirth and it struck me that aiming for the Bodhisattva ideal is a pretty scary proposition. I have not wavered, however, from my aspiration but the very real possibility and, even, eventuality of a rebirth in an apaya is horrifying. The fear of losing the thread and wandering endlessly on without the light of the Dhamma is perhaps most scary of all. But, the reason why I’m writing about this has to do with the kamma vipaka and nimitta that one experiences at the beginning of death.

In the book, as I have heard elsewhere, the Sayadaw descubra being able to help people avoid rebirth in lower realms by having them chant paritta or take precepts. It occurred to me that my mind is not nearly pure enough to ensure that kusala kamma will arise. Furthermore, I recalled the teaching of the Pure Land school which advocates constant repetition of the mane of Amitabha. Although that isn’t my practice I see the point and will guard my mind every more closely now. If I find myself going into fantasies or anger I will recite Namo tassa or partita that brighten the mind and inspire to lift it out of darkness. Truly, we never know when we will die.

Posted by: Michael | 05/26/2018

A Guided Tonglen Meditation

Guided Tonglen
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Posted by: Michael | 05/25/2018

Kamesu Sutta

Attached to sensual pleasures,
attached to sensual ties,
seeing no blame in the fetter,
never will those attached to the fetter, the tie,
cross over the flood
so great & wide.

Posted by: Michael | 05/24/2018

Seeing the Good

Now as for a person who is impure in his bodily behavior but pure in his verbal behavior, how should one subdue hatred for him? Just as when a monk who makes use of things that are thrown away sees a rag in the road: Taking hold of it with his left foot and spreading it out with his right, he would tear off the sound part and go off with it. In the same way, when the individual is impure in his bodily behavior but pure in his verbal behavior, one should at that time pay no attention to the impurity of his bodily behavior, and instead pay attention to the purity of his verbal behavior. Thus the hatred for him should be subdued.

And as for a person who is impure in his verbal behavior, but pure in his bodily behavior, how should one subdue hatred for him? Just as when there is a pool overgrown with slime & water plants, and a person comes along, burning with heat, covered with sweat, exhausted, trembling, & thirsty. He would jump into the pool, part the slime & water plants with both hands, and then, cupping his hands, drink the water and go on his way. In the same way, when the individual is impure in his verbal behavior but pure in his bodily behavior, one should at that time pay no attention to the impurity of his verbal behavior, and instead pay attention to the purity of his bodily behavior. Thus the hatred for him should be subdued.

And as for a person who is impure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, but who periodically experiences mental clarity & calm, how should one subdue hatred for him? Just as when there is a little puddle in a cow’s footprint, and a person comes along, burning with heat, covered with sweat, exhausted, trembling, & thirsty. The thought would occur to him, ‘Here is this little puddle in a cow’s footprint. If I tried to drink the water using my hand or cup, I would disturb it, stir it up, & make it unfit to drink. What if I were to get down on all fours and slurp it up like a cow, and then go on my way?’ So he would get down on all fours, slurp up the water like a cow, and then go on his way.

In the same way, when an individual is impure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, but periodically experiences mental clarity & calm, one should at that time pay no attention to the impurity of his bodily behavior… the impurity of his verbal behavior, and instead pay attention to the fact that he periodically experiences mental clarity & calm. Thus the hatred for him should be subdued.

And as for a person who is impure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, and who does not periodically experience mental clarity & calm, how should one subdue hatred for him? Just as when there is a sick man — in pain, seriously ill — traveling along a road, far from the next village & far from the last, unable to get the food he needs, unable to get the medicine he needs, unable to get a suitable assistant, unable to get anyone to take him to human habitation. Now suppose another person were to see him coming along the road. He would do what he could out of compassion, pity, & sympathy for the man, thinking, ‘O that this man should get the food he needs, the medicine he needs, a suitable assistant, someone to take him to human habitation. Why is that? So that he won’t fall into ruin right here.’ In the same way, when a person is impure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, and who does not periodically experience mental clarity & calm, one should do what one can out of compassion, pity, & sympathy for him, thinking, ‘O that this man should abandon wrong bodily conduct and develop right bodily conduct, abandon wrong verbal conduct and develop right verbal conduct, abandon wrong mental conduct and develop right mental conduct. Why is that? So that, on the break-up of the body, after death, he won’t fall into the plane of deprivation, the bad destination, the lower realms, purgatory.’ Thus the hatred for him should be subdued.

And as for a person who is pure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, and who periodically experiences mental clarity & calm, how should one subdue hatred for him? Just as when there is a pool of clear water — sweet, cool, & limpid, with gently sloping banks, & shaded on all sides by trees of many kinds — and a person comes along, burning with heat, covered with sweat, exhausted, trembling, & thirsty. Having plunged into the pool, having bathed & drunk & come back out, he would sit down or lie down right there in the shade of the trees. In the same way, when an individual is pure in his bodily behavior & verbal behavior, and periodically experiences mental clarity & calm, one should at that time pay attention to the purity of his bodily behavior… the purity of his verbal behavior, and to the fact that he periodically experiences mental clarity & calm. Thus the hatred for him should be subdued. An entirely inspiring individual can make the mind grow serene.

— AN 5.162

Posted by: Michael | 05/23/2018

Low

I failed to keep the uposatha precepts yesterday. Specifically I ate after noon (because I was feeling very strange and lightheaded but it didn’t help at all) and slept on a high bed. I again trashed store of my practice commitments this morning and realized, while walking to the train, how I was beginning to beat myself up. What I’m realizing right now though is that all of this preoccupation is simply edifying and reinforcing a sense of self. I am this. I am not that. But, none of that is ultimately true. What is true is that there were actions that were unskilfull and now they’re done. Gone. For me to continue to self-flagellate does nothing but increase misery and ahamkara.

I an thinking that the best antidote to dwelling on a depressive self is to turn the gaze outward. What can be done for others? How can I help someone else? In the mean time I will just notice the unpleasant sensations as they arise and try not to add a story to them.

Posted by: Michael | 05/23/2018

Low

I failed to keep the uposatha precepts yesterday. Specifically I ate after noon (because I was feeling very strange and lightheaded but it didn’t help at all) and slept on a high bed. I again trashed store of my practice commitments this morning and realized, while walking to the train, how I was beginning to beat myself up. What I’m realizing right now though is that all of this preoccupation is simply edifying and reinforcing a sense of self. I am this. I am not that. But, none of that is ultimately true. What is true is that there were actions that were unskilfull and now they’re done. Gone. For me to continue to self-flagellate does nothing but increase misery and ahamkara.

I an thinking that the best antidote to dwelling on a depressive self is to turn the gaze outward. What can be done for others? How can I help someone else? In the mean time I will just notice the unpleasant sensations as they arise and try not to add a story to them.

Posted by: Michael | 05/21/2018

Back

I was fortunate to be able to do a two meditation retreat this weekend and, thankfully, during that time was not allowed to access my phone. What that means is that I couldn’t post here but it also meant that I was able to put some space between myself and the never ending onslaught of media.

Naturally, there’s always the temptation to “bring something back” from a retreat. I don’t know if it is simply to prove that it was time well spent or to bolster an ego in need of approbation. Nonetheless, this weekend as a result of the Dhamma talks given by Ajahn Suddhaso and conversations with the same I gained a deeper appreciation for upekkha in practice and in a wider sense.

In terms of practice, he suggested that when we encounter painful or unpleasant feelings in the body (I suppose in the mind as well) we take a real interest in them. Looking at them clearly we also invite them to stay for as long as they wish. In other words tell the sensation “you’re welcome to stay here for as long as this body lasts” and mean it. As simple as it sounds it was revolutionary for me. I was able to see anicca in action and to deepen my concentration considerably.

Related to this are issues of social justice. Although I still believe in trying to help where I can and sharing news of injustice I need to take a more equanimous attitude. Societal change is largely out of my control and shaming people into non-harm is never going to work. What that means to me is that I need to look more carefully at my intention in sharing these things and need to spend some time thinking about my motives before posting. As Bhante said, injustice has been occurring since time immemorial so what good is it to be righteously indignant? How will being angry, aversion and confrontational resolve the problems? It won’t. If anything it will add fuel to the fire. For my own good I need to douse those flames.

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