I failed again. Whether I was baited into our or I simple had a lower threshold, I simply did not find the strength to endure the comments and scorn. I suppose I’m at a low point right now but I just find it hard to keep pushing myself to give without getting any kindness or gentleness in return.
Yes, I aspire to this but I’m yet a weak and undeveloped being. I went be too hard on myself though. I didn’t speak harshly or speak untruths. No slander or maligning. But I did abandon my resolve to abide on loving kindness with compassion.
May I build upon what I have already accomplished and never give up.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
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