Every day, when I look at my heart, I see just how impure it still is. Smeared with hatred, tainted with lust and submerged in ignorance I can’t help but wonder how I could ever be of benefit to beings, let alone to myself. I just read that, after his recent release from hospital, the Dalai Lama reaffirmed his commitment to be reborn wherever the need is greatest and the suffering most extreme. Such a noble and inspiring aspiration but, when I reflect on my situation, I can’t help but think that I would do more harm than good. And, yet, I have not given up. I just know that I need lifetimes more work on pañña, metta and karuna before I can make such an aspiration meaningful.
Until I gain a foothold in wisdom may I always be reborn in favorable training circumstances and ever pursue complete awakening to benefit numberless beings.
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