Posted by: Upāsaka | 12/11/2018

A Strange Darkening

The last day or two had been strange: I have been completely overtaken by a depression and anxiety the likes of which I can only recall having felt while on Wellbutrin to quit smoking me than twenty years ago. Yes, there are real life issues that could act as stressors but it seemed almost supernatural due to its strength and severity. The thing that immediately cane to mind was that my tonglen aspirations and practice were really working. It is still my best guess and I was so debilitated yesterday that I actually decided not to do it yesterday. However, this morning I chose to go back and do it for my daughter this morning and I am suddenly feeling better. Needless to say, this is all a strange situation and I have no idea how it’s even possible. What’s left for me to do is press on with courage and to recall that all things are impermanent and subject to change.


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