Cattāri Brahmavihārā

Strangely,  from seemingly nowhere, a  potentially unskilfull compulsion had threatened to throw my entire practice into disarray and completely eliminate the possibility of progress. It seems that,  regardless of what I do,  the mind returns to this theme and I can find no rest from it. And yet I hand much to be thankful for because the Teachings at least give me a touchstone and point of reference so that I can discern the right path from one which would only lead to forget suffering. Whether I choose it is another matter entirely.

May I have the strength to choose a path out of suffering and not sacrifice my long term benefit for a short term gain.