Cattāri Brahmavihārā

The last few weeks have been rough but what is beginning to the issue of my over-burdening and over-scheduling myself has become a real problem. I am literally doing something in every free moment I have and am waking up early and staying up later to do ensure I hit my productivity goals (self-imposed mind you). I suppose the fact that make sure I have time for formal solo and group practice is a good thing but it is truly a double-edged sword: when I “have” to hit thirty minutes of sitting meditation it becomes a little more dry and there is a sense of needing to get it done and move on to the next thing.

What is the solution? Take on less I suppose although I’m not sure how to make that happen right now. Perhaps the best I can do and hope for is to be mindful of the attitude in the mind, the actions I’m taking and their results so I can make better choices in the future. Until then, I will try to do the best I can to receive myself with an open heart. Sukhi hotu!