I have recently written about how I feel the need to commit to more intense practice in order to affect real change in my personality and behavior and I meant it but today, as I find myself with a good number of hours to devote to practice I find myself balking at the idea of sitting more than twice. It is strange but nonetheless familiar: when I have the opportunity to practice intensely at home I am usually assailed by doubts about the efficacy of marathon sessions, etc.
Writing it, I see what a cop out it is but alone in the apartment Mara knows just what to say to derail me. But, what a blessing it is to reflect and to have this place to do so. My fears, doubts and baseless trepidation are seen for what they are and I can return with greater zeal. Sukhita hontu!
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