Posted by: Upāsaka Subhavi | 02/16/2014

Train Rides

On the LIRR back from a night with the in-laws and heading for home. A general feeling of tiredness and fatigue has overcome me and I am seriously thinking about skipping tonight’s meditation session.

My mind has been so preoccupied with work that it has become harder to turn the mind to the Dhamma although I recently was shocked to find out that a friend of a friend is in the hospital undergoing chemo. She’s basically the same age and there’s no reason why it couldn’t happen to me or a loved one. The sense of immediacy, of the proximity death and illness has been unnerving but I am grateful for it as it keeps me honest and committed. May she be free of pain and suffering and swiftly recover from her illness.


  1. Your situation reminds me of the Buddha telling people that the life of the householder is way more difficult than that of a monastic. I get the same way to when my practice routine gets interrupted by responsibilities. It is probably because I have experienced the benefit of right effort that I get and sense of urgency when it happens. don’t beat yourself up. It could be that momentary right effort can be far more useful than rites and rituals. Thanks again for your hard in this blog. work

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