Cattāri Brahmavihārā

Today was a day spent with my family and was, by and large, a good one. I am still struggling to find the balance between ease and peace and effort as well as playing with brahmaviharas and breath practice techniques to try to find the one that is most suited to where I am right now. All told, however, it seems like this search and my life in general right now is being propelled by restlessness and agitation. In fact it has been so hard to get myself to sit for more than ten minutes that I’m back to using my old friend the 108 bead cedar mala to recite metta phrases. Whenever I begin to rely on my mala it betrays an unwillingness or inability to strive for deeper states of concentration but it is no less useful. It is still a great parami practice and it keeps me on the path nonetheless. May there be peace in your heart, home and everywhere. Pax in terra.