Cattāri Brahmavihārā

Possibly one of the hardest practices that I attempt to undertake on a regular basis is that of recollecting my own goodness. Almost immediately my thoughts turn to all of the reasons why there is n.othing good about the things I have done or simply that my aspirations are impure. But, if I am able to put the doubt to the side each time it arises then I am able to feel the joy and brightness which is precisely what I need right now.

Call it exhaustion or just the ebb and flow of life but I feel like I’m beginning to hit a wall. What this should signal is that I need to make a switch back to a practice that is lighter and more uplifting and eschew rigid ideas of what I shouuld be doing. Over the years I have become familiar with the pattern and it may be time that I actually learn from it.