Cattāri Brahmavihārā

This morning I ran afoul of my wife’s plans because I had assumed I would be taking my son to school and working for the res of the day. Although she relented because she realized she had told me about her change of plans a heated argument ensued and was followed by a series of texts. In essence she asserted that my commitment to the job was actually akusala and bad for the family despite (or maybe because of) my insistence that I am working so hard now to make up for lost ground (suffice it to say that we made some changes to our site and have been penalized for it).

On one hand the fear and anxiety that drive me are definitely unskillful. That I can see but my wife has expressed her unwillingness to move to cheaper areas and will not budge on other expenses so, in many ways, I feel beholden to work the way I do to pay for our obligations. I have been quite disturbed by the whole thing and have no real answers. May I find a way to live more skillfully in the midst