Cattāri Brahmavihārā

Happy uposatha everyone! I slept in late because I have been feeling under the weather in some form or another since the winter began. Actually, I think I just wanted an excuuse to sleep in. It’s interesting to watch the cycles that I go through between waking up extremely earlier (e.g. at around 3:50am) to waking up late at around 5:30am. After all these years I’m still trying to figure out the right balance that will afford me ample time for practice in the morning while allowing me to stay awake past 10.

I suppose what I’m really looking for is an impossibility: the perfect hour to wake up regardless of the circumstances. My ability to believe, despite all of the evidence to the contrary, that somehow I can find something stable and lasting in the conditioned world never ceases to amaze. But, I guess that’s what makes delusion so intractable and so hard to overcome. May we all see more clearly today and may we find true happiness in this very life. Anicca vata sankhara.