Posted by: Michael | 01/12/2015

Precious Opportunity

I have returned to doing the practices required for the Dharma Path program lately after having received an email from the lama who is my mentor in the program both because I feel I have yet much to learn and because I don’t want to leave it unfinished.

The training at this point consists of shamatha (samatha) or tranquility meditation and contemplation on the preciousness of our human life. Specifically, the great boon it is to have been born into the right conditions to practice. Just to reflect on the fact that I could have easily been born in a country where the Dhamma is not practice or is illegal, without the capacity to understand our our simply to have remained unloved upon hearing are all very really possibilities. In fact, the probability of any human being growing to adulthood and actually practicing the Dhamma must be infinitesimally small. How fortunate are we?

Posted by: Michael | 01/10/2015

Renewal

It seems that, despite myself and quite unwittingly, my former practice commitments, teachers and fellow farers on the path are entering again into my life and giving my birth the inspiration and opportunity to begin anew. I just wanted to take the opportunity here to thank all of you who read, who comment and whose practices support my own and constantly renew my confidence in the path. Every good blessing to all of you and I wish you every success in 2015.

Posted by: Michael | 01/09/2015

What is the Goal

Last night was the first night of a three month series at the Dhamma group that I consider to be my first spiritual community. The teacher and group members all consist of very dedicated practitioners of the Dhamma as taught in the Thai Forest lineage of Ajan Thanissaro. I happen to be volunteering as a manager so I get the joy of serving the community and the teachings as well.

This first class, the teacher asked us all to pause and consider what we think our goal is in arising the Dhamma and if it is really in line with the Path taught by the Lord Buddha. Are we practicing to have less stress? Are we practicing to learn how to be more effective leaders? Are we practicing under the idea that there is no goal?

Why are we practicing? Do we believe, as the Buddha taught, that the way of the Dhamma goes in one direction while the way of the world goes in another? Or do we think we can have our cake and eat it too?

Posted by: Michael | 01/08/2015

Sila and Kamma

124. Now, Asibandhakaputta, a follower of Nigantha Nataputta, came to where the Lord was and the Lord asked him: “What doctrine does Nigantha Nataputta teach his disciples?”
“Lord, Nataputta teaches that whoever kills, steals, commits sexual misconduct or lies – that person goes to hell. According to how one habitually acts, one goes to one’s destiny.”
“But if you say that as one acts habitually one goes to one’s destiny, then according to Nataputta’s teaching no one would go to hell. What do you think? If a man say, kills by day or night or from time to time, which time is the most habitual to him, when he kills or when he doesn’t kill?”
“Well, Lord, the time when he is not killing is most habitual to him.”
“Now, say a teacher teaches a doctrine such as this and a follower has faith in such a teacher. That follower would think: ‘My teacher says that whoever kills, steals, commit sexual misconduct or lies goes to hell. Now I have done these things so I am bound to go to hell.’ And so, holding this view, not giving it up, thinking it, not letting it go he does go to hell.
But say a Tathagata arises in the world. He censures, strongly censures killing, stealing, sexual misconduct and lying, saying, ‘Abstain from these things.’ Then say a follower has faith in such a teacher, that follower would think: ‘The Lord in many ways censures, strongly censures killing, stealing, sexual misconduct and lying, saying: “Abstain from these things.” Now I have done such things. That is not well done, it is not good. Moreover, I may be remorseful when I remember that such deeds cannot be undone.’ Thinking in this way, he abandons such deeds. In this way he goes beyond evil deeds.
By abandoning killing, he abstains from killing, by abandoning stealing he abstains from stealing, by abandoning sexual misconduct he abstains from that, by abandoning lying he abstains from that also. By abandoning backbiting, harsh speech, and idle chatter he abstains from that. By abandoning greed, he becomes generous, by abandoning hatred he becomes kind, and by abandoning wrong view he becomes one with perfect view.
This noble disciple, freed from greed and hatred, not bewildered but mindful and concentrated, abides suffusing the four quarters of the world, above, below, across, everywhere, all beings, the whole world with a mind filled with love, compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity that is widespread, grown great. Just as a strong conch blower with but little effort gives notice to the four quarters, in the same way, nothing whatsoever is left out of that love, that compassion, that sympathetic joy or that equanimity.”

Samyutta Nikaya IV.317

Posted by: Michael | 01/07/2015

True Refuge

7. To sacred hills, woods and groves,
To sacred trees and shrines
Do people go, gripped by fear.

But they are not safe refuges,
Not the best refuge.
Not by going there
Is one freed from all suffering.

But whoever takes refuge
In the Buddha, the Dhamma and the Sangha
Will understand with wisdom
The Four Noble Truths:

Suffering, its cause, its overcoming,
And the Noble Eightfold Path
Leading to its overcoming.

And this is a safe refuge,
The best refuge.
Having taken refuge here,
One is freed from all suffering.

Dhammapada 1

Posted by: Michael | 01/06/2015

An Eruption

(Redacted due to spelling errors: auto-correct is killing me)

Today seemed liked any other. I woke up. Did some work. Meditated for twenty minutes. Recited the Eight Verses. Got the kids ready to go and left the house.

Then, after having dropped off my son, it happened. My daughter and I were crossing the street as the snow blew about us in little vortices and eddies and, even though we had the light, a driver decided that he absolutely had to take the turn even if it meant that he came dangerously close to hitting myself and my four year old.

Call it biology, instinct or pure kammic conditioning but when I perceive a threat to my kids I lose my composure completely. Lucky I have been practicing restraint of speech for long enough that I didn’t curse but I did end up screaming at the guy rhetorically demanding to know “What are you thinking?” with enough hatred in my heart that I can still feel it now. Afterwards, as my daughter asked me if I knew the person, since such outbursts are so thankfully rare and in NYC you don’t generally talk to anyone you don’t know, I was blown away by the intensity of the ill-will.

Thinking about it later I marveled at the disconnect between my aims and my behavior. And, to be frank, I could have avoided the entire situation by simply allowing him to pass despite the fact that “I had the right of way.” Sadly I feel like I almost wanted the conflict and to get indignant. May I do better next time and may I be ever mindful of my behavior and mind states so that I can prevent such states from arising in the future.

Posted by: Michael | 01/06/2015

Happy Uposatha – A Sick Child

This was never uploaded yesterday…

My son awoke is this morning not with his words but with the intensity of his shivering. By four a.m. it was clear that he had a fever and a pretty terrible headache. Doctor called, medicine dispensed and, for a brief and uneasy time, the emergency was contained.

Kids sick with colds and flu  are so commonplace that the almost don’t merit discussion but as any parent can testify, the feeling of existential disquiet and suffering when one of your children is ill is almost unbearable. This fact along with the shock at the sudden and unexpectedness of his fever have served as great reminders that life gives us no warnings. Sickness can come at any time to wipe out our abilities, our joys and even our very lives. So may I take heed to the teaching of this divine messenger and not squander my time while I have this precious life and may I remember too to cherish my loved ones for, at any time, they could be swept away by the food of sickness, aging and death.

Posted by: Michael | 01/04/2015

Happy Birthday to You

Today is my birthday and for some strange reason it comes with this strange feeling of entitlement that must be a result of an entire childhood and (later though begrudgingly) adolescence throughout which I was made to feel as if were a petty tyrant on this one, special day of the year. And although it may be a nice thing to do for some people and something which I, too, will do to my children until they eventually leave the nest completely spoiled and entitled, it is something which I feel is not particularly good or useful for my own spiritual development. Precisely due to this I have attempted to make as little of a deal about this birthday as possible and would like to start my own little birthday tradition where I take the day and use it to give service and charity to others. It may be too late to do this effectively today but from now on, every birthday I have left will be dedicated to giving thanks and serving those around me.

And, maybe, just maybe, my kids will get the hint that maybe the meaning of one’s birthday and one’s life has more to do with bringing happiness to others than to oneself alone.

Posted by: Michael | 01/03/2015

The Doors of the Immortal

3. The doors of the Immortal are open.
Let them who can hear respond with faith.

Majjhima Nikaya I.169

Posted by: Michael | 01/02/2015

The Difficult Treasure

As I reflect each day on the Eight Verses I keep returning to themes that I have pondered briefly but never in a systematic way nor as a practice. Yet my life in the last few days has proven to be the perfect testing ground for this practice given that my dear wife had been going through a quite difficult period and leading her customary restraint.

Lest anyone misconstrues, I am not complaining for I truly an grateful not only for everything she does for our family, for me on a daily basis but also for the opportunity she has given me to work on my defilements and issues. I can see inasmuch as I have cousin enough to know I am largely blind to my own failings so I do not imagine that most of her frustration is unfounded. Rather, I see the pointlessness of approaching the issue from any other search beyond one which is thoroughly pragmatic and that takes into account the phenomenological nature of my own subjectivity. In short, I do my best to adjust my behavior where possible to accommodate her and then I work with my own frustration, resentment and irritation. It is really this latter work that forms the basis of my own daily life practice while at home with my family.

So what does that mean exactly? Just that I give thanks for the opportunity to practice patience, restraint, forbearance and compassion. No, it doesn’t usually feel good but the point is working with the intention, making an effort to cultivate goodness while stamping out the unskillful in thought, speech and action.

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