Cattāri Brahmavihārā

So, I’ve been unsuccessful in keeping my practice commitments and I think it largely has do to with fear. With so many people succumbing to the flu I find myself daily worrying if I’m coming down with it myself. As a result, I haven’t been pushing myself to fast or exercise as I had planned.

Thankfully, I’m slowly starting to realize that there will never be a time when I feel completely strong and fit. In fact, the older I get the more rare those feelings are likely to become. The point is this: if I really find value in these practices that transcends this birth why would I let the fear of sickness stop me? That really is the question. I’m trying to develop toughness of mind and if these things aren’t setting that then maybe it is better to let them go. But, if I’m honest with myself, I don’t yet know that so I feel I deserve at least one more attempt at it.