Everyday it seems that I fail to live up to my aspirations to remain non-reactive to provocation and to refrain from treating my family members with anything less than loving-kindness, compassion, appreciative joy and equanimity. Some days I do better, some worse but at least I am committed to return to forgiveness as quickly as possible.
The field of my heart is not yet free of rocks and stones and I cannot command anger and resentment to leave me be. What I can do is work to clear the field, unearth the sharp pieces of stone and fill in the holes with forgiveness and love. Really, it’s no different than coming back to the breath.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
The same struggle here. Let’s just say I have my triggers… Even when I fail and react, I remember that reacting with compassion to the fact that I failed is a part of the practice as much as trying not to react… It really helps me to alleviate at least a portion of the suffering created. Sometimes actually it creates quite pleasant experiences, a positive energy I use to be more skillful in the future. Anyway, good luck to you!
By: Adrian on 09/18/2017
at 2:40 pm
Thanks Adrian! It’s always nice to recall that there’s company on the Path. Best of luck to you as well!
By: Upāsaka on 09/18/2017
at 2:52 pm
Hello, absolutely! So many things you write about resonate with me. We share similar struggles and challenges! And how couldn’t we? We are inhabiting the same realm of dukkha after all. The only difference between us and others who just go with the flow is that we at least try. And that is very noble… So, be strong!
By: Adrian on 09/20/2017
at 8:56 am