Strange how these things creep up on you but all morning long I have been aware of aversive thoughts towards others accompanied by a sense of haughtiness and pride.
Naturally, as someone who is ostensibly committed to the eradication of the defilements I’ve been disturbed by these thoughts. And yet, I know I can’t simply push them away and naively hope they don’t come back. These defilements have been with me from time immemorial and wishing them away just won’t suffice.
May I offer myself compassion and forgiveness, understanding that beings with clouded vision act in ignorance in our attempts to free ourselves from suffering. May I stand under this suffering and comprehend it and thereby grow in wisdom.
Post Scriptum:
Thank you to everyone who sticks with me despite the repeated auto-correct atrocities perpetrated by my “smart” phone.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
Thank you for being so honest. It helps us all see are shadow and work with it. I also appreciate that you are being compassionate with yourself. Blessings.
By: Buddhist Tarot Chick on 09/12/2016
at 12:24 pm
And thank you for your encouraging words!
By: Upāsaka on 09/12/2016
at 12:56 pm