How to say this? I find myself one again at a familiar place where I once again feel the need to dissuade myself from doctrines and teachings that I cannot honestly believe we’re taught by the Lord Buddha. I am at once disturbed by what seems to be my own vacillation and pleased by the return to simplicity that I imagine to be enshrined in the Canon and the Theravada traditions as a whole.
Surely, this is yet a matter of unenlightened perception but it seems to me that I have no choice. Truly, faulty as my perceptions may be, I have no other guide. And I recognize a certain sadness and a feeling of longing for complexity, for layers of proliferation and variety of emotions but I know that these things do not lead to calming or to release.
May we all practice as honestly as we know how and make an end to ask forms of suffering.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
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