Cattāri Brahmavihārā

The party few weeks have been especially difficult and I have been coming to the formal practice from a place of almost no joy. In fact, there is a sense of heaviness and dread every time I sit down and try to force myself to follow the breath and bud-dho. So this morning I made a decision: I would sit in a way that respected this suffering and would bring the poets of the brahmaviharas to the dukkha.

We’re their trumpets and angels? Not quite but the acknowledgement of the suffering and my wish to be free of it were more than enough to help style the heart and give it a few, precious moments of peace.

Nidukkho homi.