Cattāri Brahmavihārā

I truly feel as if the rug has been pulled from under my feet and am more or less flailing around trying to find some way to ease the existential ache and get some true rest. So far I have managed to maintain the semblance of my formal practice but two days went by without posting and I didn’t even realize it. Something is off but I just can’t put my finger on it.

What choice do I have but to push ahead though? I have let so many practice commitments go already and find myself struggling to do the bear minimum so I think that, for the time being at least, it would be best to formally renounce everything but the essentials and begin building again.