Well, I feel as if I have chosen poorly again. I have a lot of side work which has caused me to spend what time I had this morning writing rather than meditating. Unfortunately, it seems that my resolution to meditate was promptly forgotten once the pressure got too high. So, what to do now? How to make the best of it?
What immediately ccomes to mind is to recite the refuges and precepts innwardly and imagine mysdelf prostrating before the Buddha. Then, using my mala to put the mind on metta. Finally, trying to stay with the breath either silently or with “bud-dho” through the day. I don’t know quite why but I often feel that all has been lost if I fail to hit any step in the ritual of morning meditation and if that doesn’t qualify as attachment to rites and rituals than I don’t know what does.
The biggest obstacle I am facing now are my own expectations. I am so attached to the idea of the practice being just so that I am thrown off course by any deviation. May I work with care, compassion and gentleness to overcome my own expectations and cultivate the path in whatever way I can.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
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