Cattāri Brahmavihārā

Still dogged by the same worries and problems I managed to hold myself down this morning long enough to sit for fifteen minutes. I can’t really charaacterize the type of meditation I was doing although the object was more or less the breath. Still, for at lleast the first half I was more sensitive to the whole-body sensation of buzzing and tingling that seems to accompany anxiety and worry. And, although this wasn’t my intended object, simply being aware of it allowed an extra-verbal understanding of what was happening to begin to bud and flower. At some point I heard a thought whisper the idea “Embrace this” and that is precisely what I did. I stopped struggling to keep the panic out and to remain calm and just let it be there. Imagine my surprise as it dissipated to reveal an ease that I never would have expected.