Cattāri Brahmavihārā

It’s so easy to believe that I need to worry about money, debt, security, health and myriad other things over which I have no ultimate control and which are completely unstable and not worthy refuges. But, why is this when every day someone close to us sickens, someone close dies, someone close is struggling? Why is it so hard to believe that this dukkha, this anicca is the truth of samsara and there is simply no bargaining with it? How can I accept teachings that I have no direct knowledge of like rebirth but I balk at the notion of unsatisfactoriness and impermanence despite seeing them day in and day out? What is this if not spiritual blindness?