Cattāri Brahmavihārā

I had a rather strange experience this morning during the five minute sit I was able to get in and I’m not quite sure how to categorize it. As I was mentally reciting “Buddho” with my mala a question seemed to bubble up with the meditation words and was this: where is this intention and this word coming from? It was actually more of a visceral and pre-verbal befuddlement and I am as yet unsure of how to relate to it. Is it a darkened mind’s encounter with anatta? Is it simply a misapprehension? I’m certainly not ready nor aam I sage enough to make any pronouncements but I am nonetheless intrigued.