It was probably the 12 hour day at work yesterday combined with the early awakening of my kids which interrupted my morning meditation but suffice it to say that I have been in a horrible mood all day. Unfortunately, I haven’t yet been able to get a good hold on it and I lashed at at my poor wife for interrupting me in the midst of work. Almost as soon as I brusquely hurried her off the phone I regreted it and I have been regreting a number of unskillful acts and words uttered today. I want to say that compassion is what’s called for but is it really? Or, is compassion the only thing called for? I have asked forgiveness of her for my bad speech but somehow that just doesn’t seem to be enough? Still, it’s possible that this desire for penance and punishment is simply a further manifestation of the ill-will and aversion that got me into this mess in the first place.
Aham niddukkho homi!
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
Practice loving kindness, by doing a chore or two she normally does. If she asks, be truthful, if she doesn’t you have shown true compassion, as you aren’t expecting a reward. It’s something I’m still working on as well, the above is my current approach.
By: keiththegreen on 05/30/2013
at 7:35 pm
Dear kalyana mitta,noble friend.Why do you want to be perfect? Nobody is…accept whatever happens,only see it..don.t cling on it..see also how many times you are mindful reflecting,spreading care and love…appreciate your helpfulness,your kindness..meditation is that what happens a f t e r you sit on cushin..hope baby will be ok soon.Theruwan saranai and Metta from sri lanka
By: Ven.dhammadipa on 05/31/2013
at 3:14 am