Yesterday was the uposatha but I failed to observe it largely due to the cold I felt coming on and the fact that I was at work for something like 11 hours. At times yesterday, I was filled with disappointment and resentment but I quickly realized each time it arose that berating myself wasn’t the way to go. I’m not sure if it is a result of the cold, the recent spate of financial difficulties or simply that my kamma ripened in just this way but I was feeling low enough as it was yesterday without adding insult to the injury.
This morning, although sicker, I left the house feeling in slightly higher spirits and I plan to capitalize on that energy by pouring it back into the practice. I intend to work with my brahma vihara phrase (niddukkho homi) and the breath throughout the day and will recite the Dhammacakkappavattana sutta tonight (even if that means doing it lying in bed like I did yesterday).
May we all incline our hearts toward freedom through true love and care for ourselves and all beings!
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
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