Happy uposatha! Unfortunately I’m not observing today as there are too many familial responsibilities to attend and I just don’t feel well today. Trying to bring some calm and distance to the situation and stop identifying so closely with all of these negative and unwholesomes mind states.
Right now the narrative that I’ve invested in goes as follows: woke up feeling tired and nauseous so I went upstairs and slept fitfully on the couch until 6am and started working until my wife woke up. We had a pretty vicious argument about what are plans were for the day and that set the tone. So here I am with my two year old strapped to me asleep on the R train to BK to go my son’s school for a Christmas thing.
So, my goal for this observance is just to get some perspective and take whatever time I may to cultivate some peace. Sabbe satta sabba dukkha pamuccantu.
Cattāri Brahmavihārā 
I know the feeling not being able to practice quite the way I want, although I figure my perception of obligation, and my attachment to the one with whom I could be arguing… well, I choose to blame no one but myself for my challenges.
May you find peace and all be well, friend.
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